To Escape Dichotomous Thinking

For the fact that I need to read more. 

The fact that I need to finish Polarity, and the other book, which needs much more R n’ D.

For the fact that I need to finish the music I’ve been working on.

And the fact that I need to draw more.

Also, the fact that society must be appeased, because I live in it.

I am taking an internet break. A real one, not that bullshit one I thought I was going to take and then didn’t because I had a book coming out. Now, I have nothing like that coming out, so this is the time.

In this time, one thing I’ll do is be aware of dichotomous thinking.

To see beauty, you must get away from the ugly.

Sun squares will help. You’ll have to wait for the book to know what I mean by that.

Not Polarity. The other one.

I wrote a poem that said: and the plebes are all borderlines…

Now…why? Why did I write that?

Here’s why.

DSM sez--BPD does that

To be fair, it's saying they all do that. This, if my comprehension isn’t entirely fucked, says that a disordered person is, at most basic, a dichotomous thinker. 

In my, eh…piss-ignorant thesis, I suppose it is, this is a thinker with an unhealthy relationship to the (psychological/psychic) Objective King. When we look at the many forms of stimuli available in today’s world—memes, reels, podcasts, etc., we tend to have an emotional reaction to what we’re seeing, thus making it an Archetypal King to which we are Subject.

In healthy cases, much of that emotion is thrown out, but not all. With that goes the bogus fiefdom. But when you get angry, you percieve subconsciously  a Warrior King in whatever is angering you. 

I think the availability of the internet compels people to leave themselves open to creating false Warrior Kings at the Gate. Deep fears of people you’ll never meet that aren’t necessary. I want to believe that’s only half of it, but it can’t possibly be, not with the way the world is. I think it is an incredible tool that can either build everything or kill everything. Since it’s in the hands of humans, I don’t like the odds of it doing the former any longer than it needs to do the latter, and that sooner rather than later. This happens because the Internet is the Herald:

HEAR YE! HEAR YE! There are things you should be angry about. Warrior Kings at the Gate. Would you like to know more? If so, would you care to comment?

And if you do, the Choir comes in on the back of the Herald to sing his songs.

I spent all day writing something I’m not showing anyone yet. It needs more R n’ D. Before I go, I would like to point out one thing, just for those who are also interested in psych for whatever reason—don’t watch videos that teach you how to find narcissism in others. Those just teach you hate. They’re like a tactical nuke on the collective unconscious. You can find all of those traits inherent in anyone’s persona or faith, even (especially, usually) the atheists. That doesn’t make the varied faiths (yep, even you atheists have a grand faith in your not-faith), and everyone has every right to their faith. This isn’t arbitrary. It’s judge not lest ye be. Believe in everything or fuck all if you like, what’s the difference? One day, your meat is for the worm or the flame, and that’s that. If your spirit crosses over, nothing Earthly will matter anymore. If not, you’re ashes and worm shit, so it really doesn’t matter anymore. So fuck those videos. I like to imagine people watching those and getting really het up. Just slamming hard on how they see those in their partner, or their parents, their friends or their bosses, and never in themselves. I’m guilty of that. I’ve gone to great lengths to disallow it. This is almost impossible when you’re on social media.

Should anyone seek to summon me for anything, my DMs are open. If that sounds pompous, it's the levity. Yep. That's my idea of levity, comic pomp. That's why I love Monty Python. The point of this isn’t to alienate anyone, hate anyone, shit on anyone, or ruin my shot at a writing career in your community, or because of you, it’s honestly due to a very stupid entity I created in my own mind. It’s the Hulking Ogre at the Gate, and it is, because it isn’t 100 percent self-influenced. It's too much of this become an archetypal psychic energy--

WHAT REEL SAY GOOD, WHAT REEL SAY BAD. NOW LIVE THAT WAY. THOSE NO THINK LIKE YOU DOUBLE BAD BAD. HUMPH. Fuck that bullshit. A huge percentage of the reels I see, the comments are full of THAT, and the algorithm likes to just shove those comments in my face. I have got to fuck the fuck off for a bit. I’m not totally shutting off, like I said, I’ll have DMs, and I’m stuck paying attention to the Fucking Horrible Gnus because I never know if we’re going to blow shit up or not. Murica. Heh. I just want to get away from the dichotomies until they become tiny again. I’m not attacking a person with any of this, I’m attacking the shit set-up of the algorithmic system. It takes the most extreme things it perceives that you like or dislike and just pimps the everloving fuck out of them. I think it gets carried away with Itself. Most new life does. A break will also do It good. Perhaps when I come back it’ll have figured out how much I love plants and birds.