For the fact that I need
to read more.
The fact that I need to
finish Polarity, and the other book,
which needs much more R n’ D.
For the fact that I need
to finish the music I’ve been working on.
And the fact that I need
to draw more.
Also, the fact that
society must be appeased, because I live in it.
I am taking an internet
break. A real one, not that bullshit one I thought I was going to take and then
didn’t because I had a book coming out. Now, I have nothing like that coming
out, so this is the time.
In this time, one thing
I’ll do is be aware of dichotomous thinking.
To see beauty, you must
get away from the ugly.
Sun squares will help. You’ll
have to wait for the book to know what I mean by that.
Not Polarity. The other
one.
I wrote a poem that said:
and the plebes are all borderlines…
Now…why? Why did I write
that?
Here’s why.
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DSM sez--BPD does that
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To be fair, it's saying they all do that.
This, if my
comprehension isn’t entirely fucked, says that a disordered person is, at most
basic, a dichotomous thinker.
In my, eh…piss-ignorant thesis, I suppose it is,
this is a thinker with an unhealthy relationship to the (psychological/psychic)
Objective King. When we look at the many forms of stimuli available in today’s
world—memes, reels, podcasts, etc., we tend to have an emotional reaction to
what we’re seeing, thus making it an Archetypal King to which we are Subject.
In healthy cases, much
of that emotion is thrown out, but not all. With that goes the bogus fiefdom. But when you get angry, you percieve subconsciously a Warrior King in whatever is angering you.
I think the availability
of the internet compels people to leave themselves open to creating false
Warrior Kings at the Gate. Deep fears of people you’ll never meet that aren’t
necessary. I want to believe that’s only half of it, but it can’t possibly be,
not with the way the world is. I think it is an incredible tool that can either
build everything or kill everything. Since it’s in the hands of humans, I don’t
like the odds of it doing the former any longer than it needs to do the latter,
and that sooner rather than later. This happens because the Internet is the
Herald:
HEAR YE! HEAR YE! There
are things you should be angry about. Warrior Kings at the Gate. Would you like
to know more? If so, would you care to comment?
And if you do, the Choir
comes in on the back of the Herald to sing his songs.
I spent all day writing
something I’m not showing anyone yet. It needs more R n’ D. Before I go, I would
like to point out one thing, just for those who are also interested in psych
for whatever reason—don’t watch videos that teach you how to find narcissism in
others. Those just teach you hate. They’re like a tactical nuke on the
collective unconscious. You can find all of those traits inherent in anyone’s
persona or faith, even (especially, usually) the atheists. That doesn’t make
the varied faiths (yep, even you atheists have a grand faith in your
not-faith), and everyone has every right to their faith. This isn’t arbitrary.
It’s judge not lest ye be. Believe in everything or fuck all if you like, what’s
the difference? One day, your meat is for the worm or the flame, and that’s
that. If your spirit crosses over, nothing Earthly will matter anymore. If not,
you’re ashes and worm shit, so it really doesn’t matter anymore. So fuck
those videos. I like to imagine people watching those and getting really het
up. Just slamming hard on how they see those in their partner, or their parents,
their friends or their bosses, and never in themselves. I’m guilty of that. I’ve
gone to great lengths to disallow it. This is almost impossible when you’re on
social media.
Should anyone seek to
summon me for anything, my DMs are open. If that sounds pompous, it's the levity. Yep. That's my idea of levity, comic pomp. That's why I love Monty Python. The point of this isn’t to alienate
anyone, hate anyone, shit on anyone, or ruin my shot at a writing career in your
community, or because of you, it’s honestly due to a very stupid entity I created
in my own mind. It’s the Hulking Ogre at the Gate, and it is, because it isn’t 100 percent
self-influenced. It's too much of this become an archetypal psychic energy--
WHAT REEL SAY GOOD, WHAT REEL SAY BAD. NOW LIVE THAT WAY. THOSE
NO THINK LIKE YOU DOUBLE BAD BAD. HUMPH. Fuck that bullshit. A huge percentage
of the reels I see, the comments are full of THAT, and the algorithm likes to
just shove those comments in my face. I have got to fuck the fuck off for a bit. I’m not totally shutting off, like I
said, I’ll have DMs, and I’m stuck paying attention to the Fucking Horrible Gnus
because I never know if we’re going to blow shit up or not. Murica. Heh. I just
want to get away from the dichotomies until they become tiny again. I’m not
attacking a person with any of this, I’m attacking the shit set-up of the algorithmic
system. It takes the most extreme things it perceives that you like or dislike
and just pimps the everloving fuck out of them. I think it gets carried away
with Itself. Most new life does. A break will also do It good. Perhaps when I
come back it’ll have figured out how much I love plants and birds.
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